bewitch the mind and ensnare the senses

When I was 11 I already knew that I was bi. What I didn't think about was, how to tell it to my homophobic parents. My parents know that I've had a relationship with a girl years before and well, to put it mindly, they were not pleased. They completely freaked out and thought that I would never like men which, of course, isn't true. I like men, and well, women too. My parents are very conservative and they tried to bring me up in the same way their parents did but they completely failed, at least in my opinion. My parents think that I am the nice and naive girl which I used to be in my teens. But the fact is that it doesn't matter how hard I try, I will never ever fulfill their expectations which are pretty high in my opinion. As the eldest of three children it is expected of me to finish my studies in time, to find a nice man and to settle down and have three or more kids. Not very likely. I hate kids. They just rub me the wrong way. Babies are cute when they don't scream. Unfortunately they scream most of the time. I don't even want to think about settling down. I never want to marry. Just the image of having a fairytale- like wedding gives me the creeps.

I wish a woman can also be seen as happy-go-lucky person even if she doesn't marry. Today society still believes that if e.g. a woman at age 40 isn't married or having someone by her side, she is considered to be sad and miserable. I am in my 20s and I am nowhere near miserable, just because I'm single.